Depersonalized, Depressed, and functioning!

I'm the type of person that wants to know why.

Why do I feel the way I do?

What could be the cause?

How can I fix it?

I'm on day 4 of the Paxil to Zoloft switch. I thinkit's working. But I always have questions...

I have had Depersonalization-Derealization Anxiety Disorder/Clinical Depression for 20 years now. I have been in remission for long, long, LONG periods of time, thanks to the love, patience, and acceptance of family and friends - along with a bevy of therapists and Paxil, which I started taking at 31 (10 years ago).

But I've never stopped wondering "Why?"; or "What?". Why do I have this? What causes it? Where did it come from?

This recent episode has come during what has seemed a perfect storm of things: a bout with bronchitis, working on 2 post-grad degrees in Educational Leadership (School Admin), have had a sick husband, a crazy home life...you name it...

But I'm still searching, still wondering...

and want it to go away forever....