|Jul 09 2012|
Have any of you guys gotten into the series (or graphic novel version) "The Walking Dead"?
Yeah - I'm kinda life a zombie :)
I have a feeling - like I said on Saturday - thatthis is a transitional phase; you know, going off the Paxil/onto the Zoloft. I am hesitant to throw in the towel on the Zoloft after 13 days. As many of us know, it usually takes 4 to 6 weeks for stuff to start cookin' in our bodies.
I have this stupid perfect storm of things going on inside me, as I've told you guys before: Paxil doesn't work anymore, lots of life-stress (although probably things that don't seem stressful to others, but stressful to me!), busy career, school's out for summer (shout out to Alice Cooper...), have had a lovely 6 month run of bronchitis on-and-off again...and menopause :) Aaaahh...lovely!
In any event, I think I should give the Zoloft another couple of weeks before I throw my hands up in the air and wave 'em like I just don't care (sorry - I'm still in rapper mode after hearing Ice-T and Sir Mix-A-Lot on NPR yesterday...don't ask...I know that those 2 guys and NPR don't necessarily go together...it was on a show...). I remember it taking about 6 weeks for Paxil to work for me initially, and was reminded by my mother this weekend that I had some interesting side effects when starting that, too - like tummy trouble and feeling like a zombie. It's just been such a long time since I started it, I really don't recall feeling bad taking it! But, in retrospect, I guess I did :)
Yeah, you know - it's bad enough to feel disconnected from depression/depersonalization/anxiety, but then to add pharmacutically-induced zombification...that's a whole other element.
I guess the best way to describe exactly how I feel is this:
You know how you feel when you're really, really, REALLY sick? That foggy feeling you have when you're running a fever? Well, that's what I've felt like since Thursday with the exception of the fact that I'm NOT running a fever and I'm not physically ill. I just have that foggy, feverish brain feeling like I get when I'm super-duper sick. It does dissipate somewhat due to our favorite friend, diurnal variation - AKA I'm one of those people that has a period of time at some point in a 24 hour period where all of my symptoms lift and I am "normal" again. For me, it can begin anwhere between 3pm and 7pm, which sorta stinks :p
Day 10 of "The Big Z"...
Zoloft - Days 7 & 8 & 9
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