|Jul 29 2008|
Damnit I can't breathe, I need a break from this damned disease, let me fucking go! You make me worry when thereis nothing to worry about, you make me sick from worring, you kill who I am, you make me someone I am not, the pain is just too real, let me be, please! Life may be a struggle and adjustments ahead, but my like is GOOD, its GREAT so back the fuck off! Leave me in peace, let me be! Stop turning and twisting till I break to your needs, my needs are not the same as yours I wish no pain on anyone while you wish nothing but pain for me. I am not a host for your misery, I'm not your toy, so fucking stop toying with me!Leave my mind!!!! I know what I have, I love what I have, now go away! You will NOT destroy me, I will FIGHT you, you will NOT desicrate this one, this one controls my heart, my heart has got to be stronger then you! BACK THE FUCK OFF ME! Let me breathe, let me be...PLEASE! I am not your home, go away damnit let me be! Sick as you make me I am not for you, I cant be this isnt right, go away! STOP! This woman is no longer your child of rage, I am no longer your excuse, I am not that fucking mistake you make me be. I will not give in this time battle you I will and I will fucking win. I WILL WIN! I am not your twisted friend, I am not your bait to worse thoughts. I have the strength to hang on, you will not make me give in, you almost had me yet again, but guess what I caught you, I felt you sneaking in, I SAW you coming, if nothing more I have grown enough to catch you in your decieving ways. I am not for you to play with any more, I stand up tall and scream to you I WILL FIGHT YOU. I will not back down to you, keep coming, bring it bitch, I have this now, I have me! With out me you are nothing but a dark place hidden with in. You may feel immortal but the only immortalness you have is what I give you, I will no longer feed you. Starve! DIE! Leave me alone! My wounds may not be able to heal with you taring and beating into them, but I will not let you rip me apart any longer. Captivating as you were when I was a child, you made me feel free, but in fact you did nothing but cause more pain that now I am unable to erase, but I can get past them. I dont need you any longer. I see what you have done to me, I see the pain you have caused me the despair you have broughten me. You may be with me for the rest of my life but it doesnt mean I will accept you, it doesnt mean that I will give into you, you will try to seep your way out I know, but I will not let you, cry as you wish, tare if you please, hit me as hard as you can, I can take it, I will surpass you. I will fucking fight you with everything I have till the damn day I die! I will not give you another day, I will not let you take me away. I will not let you fucking destroy me! I have too much to live for, too much to fight for and way too damn much love to give for you to stop me! BRING "IT" BITCH I WILL FUCKING FIGHT YOU!
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