|May 30 2012|
I hope everyone had a great holiday weekend! Remembering the great times we had with our loved ones is always a good time.
The biggest thing on my mind is cancer. Which is a huge part of my liferight now. May is brain cancer awareness month and a person I hold very dearly to my heart is currently battling it.
I just feel like no one recognizes any other cancer except breast cancer. Everyone knows that pink is associated with breast cancer. But no one knows what grey is. Or silver. Or yellow. I think all cancer should be equally represented. It all effects people equally. All cancer is horrible. And sad.
Everytime I see this man, I think about how lucky I am to be as healthy as I am. This man was perfectly healthy a year ago. And now he's fighting for his life. Cancer is a hard hard battle for anyone to battle.
There's a little girl that my cousin advocates for. She's 5 or 6. Has brain cancer. Why does cancer effect the best people? It takes so much away from life. It changes people so much. It just isnt fair.
I also think a lot about my depression. I am going to a new doctor tomorrow. I've been to 2 different counselors, and been on 3 different medicines. And it just isn't working out for me. My mom did some research and she thinks I may be bipolar also. This past year has just been awful.
I feel guilty too. I feel like I've been putting a lot of stress on my mom. The other day, we was in my schools guidence counselors office and she broke down in tears. I hate seeing her like this. All because of me. I know mothers are supposed to worry about their children but I just feel like I've been bringing her down with me...
I'm hoping this new doctor is going to be good for me and help me through the hard times I'm in. We'll see.
Positive comments and/or suggestions are highly welcomed!
Thank you guys for taking the time to read my diary. It means the world to me(:
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