Dealing with my wife's manic.

I had a tough afternoon and evening.  I wanted to write my wife so bad.  I have never just laid into her for what she has done.  The betrayal, the lies, the cheating, the cruelty.  I have been trying to show her I love her, but yesterday I wanted to tell her how horrible she has been. 

I know none of it will sink in with her.  I know it would not make a difference.  I know keeping silent is probably the best thing I can do.  No communication at all.  But I really really wanted to do it.  I ended up contacting me friend that is having trouble with her own husband.  She talked me down for the night.  We ended up spending 6 hours on the phone.  I don't think I have ever spoken to anybody that long on the phone in my life.

I am still feeling the urge a little this morning, but it is not as strong as it was before.