|May 05 2012|
I had a tough afternoon and evening. I wanted to write my wife so bad. I have never just laid into her for what she has done. The betrayal, the lies, the cheating, the cruelty. I have been trying to show her I love her, but yesterday I wanted to tell her how horrible she has been.
I know none of it will sink in with her. I know it would not make a difference. I know keeping silent is probably the best thing I can do. No communication at all. But I really really wanted to do it. I ended up contacting me friend that is having trouble with her own husband. She talked me down for the night. We ended up spending 6 hours on the phone. I don't think I have ever spoken to anybody that long on the phone in my life.
I am still feeling the urge a little this morning, but it is not as strong as it was before.
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