|Oct 04 2010|
That's what I told my wife last night. Anyone who has been following the saga of of my marriage knows that it's been a very interesting few weeks but I'm really beginning to question wetherwifey knows herself any more.
I talked with her GF over the weekend and we both see that wifey is very conflicted and it's beginning to raise new concerns with me. I finally caved in and gave her what she has claimed to want for soo long. We have the open arrangement and ever since then I've been sleeping but it seems like her anxiety levels are way up.
I've either caught her crying or seen the evidence of it after the fact on 4 occasions in the last 3 weeks, more than she had in the last 3 months. I approach her and she gives me the I don't want to talk about it, it's nothing, I had a bad day, I'm stressed about money lines. I don't buy it anymore. We had money issues before all of this so forget that one. She used to at least talk to me a little bit but now she has completely shut down towards me and at times acts like a jealous GF towards me. I really think she is seriously regretting the whole arrangement and at the same time feels an overwhelming guilt because of her own actions and feelings. I wish I could get her to open up to me again but for now she has that door closed, locked and with a chair propped up against it.
I do still love my wife, very much but I'm not going to let her drag me back down. I care deeply for her and I just want her to lean on me, I'm here for her and will be.
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