Daily Thoughts

Wow! What a surprise I received this morning! My Primary Care Dr. offered to act as my pain managementDr. since he has known me for umteen years and he is going to even call my old Neurologist to see if he will continue being my Dr. on the condition that he does not have to prescribe the pain meds! I swear I about kissed his feet! lol! I'm still a little in shock and am actually not trying to get my hopes up that I may be able to continue seeing my favorite Neurologist!

The simple fact that I found someone willing to manage my pain, after weeks of stressing... I just don't know what to think at this point, but feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of me and I can actually breathe.

And, even if my old Neurologist won't take me back, I feel like I can find a new one now who will take me on, knowing he/she does not actually have to prescribe the meds, just do all the MRI's, and exams and such!

Geesh! It really is awful that it has come to this for us who actually suffer from chronic pain, but at this point, damn...i'll take what I can get! Especially after waking up to a dreary, rainy day that did absolutely nothing but make my pain worse! My hip was throbbing, the joint aching something fierce; my sinuses killing me from the pressure and wouldn't you know, another day with a Migraine. My BP was 160/105 when I woke up and I wobbled around the house on my cane this morning while trying to get ready for my appointment. 

It really was a shock to both myself and my husband when my PCP stated he would manage my pain, he's never really been that empathetic before and yet he said the damnedest thing; he actually said, he had a good nights rest so he was in a good mood. I was thinking, seriously, that he had just gotten lucky the night before, lol! But whatever the case, I just hope he doesn't change his mind next month!

He also stated that he knew we understood why no one was willing to take on my care, and that he could try himself to find someone, but the odds were unlikely in our area, because even the so called pain clinics didn't prescribe narcotics. It really is unfathomable how they can even claim to be pain management clinics when they limit themselves to certain types of treatment.  

Again though, let me say how thankful and lucky I feel at this moment and only hope I continue to feel this way after next months visit and I will be praying that my PCP gets another good nights rest or lucky or whatever it was that prompted him to take this on for me! lol!