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Daily Diary

I'm up on the computer alot. The weather has been crappy.
So I'm putting my journal online

April 08 2012

Apr 08 2012

330 am woke up. took meds. been on the computer with no enthusiasm but I am hanging in there. Trying to not think about today nor tomorrow, just the present.

I still have the willpower to strugglewith this. Trying to establish and follow some sort of schedule.

I still have this feeling that something is wrong with my head other than the obvious. This relapse feels different. Not sure what it is or if I just need more meds. but something isn't right.

My room mate is a hugger. Yesterday, she wanted to hug me and I would just patt her on the back. I felt invasion of space, uncomfortable, paranoid/ She insisted on a hug and I pushed her away and as I walked away I said I"m on meds! Invasion of my space! I felt bad. She was pretty pissed too, but after all she's just a room mate. So all is good.

feeling 8/ 10 as lowest

I walked today for a fair bit. did some photography for mind distraction and it helped.

It's now 530pm no nap today. so that's good.

gonna eat huge dinner and then bed I think aiming for 8pm.

Maybe watch some t.v.

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written by Joy75, April 08, 2012

That's interesting when you just know something isn't right. I would call your psychiatrist and let him know how you are feeling. You could just need a medication adjustment. Yes, you have willpower and you will keep having willpower. You have to with this illness. I'm sorry your roommate was invading your space. Does she hug you all the time? That would bother me too. I need lots of space. I hope you feel better soon.