|Apr 08 2012|
330 am woke up. took meds. been on the computer with no enthusiasm but I am hanging in there. Trying to not think about today nor tomorrow, just the present.
I still have the willpower to strugglewith this. Trying to establish and follow some sort of schedule.
I still have this feeling that something is wrong with my head other than the obvious. This relapse feels different. Not sure what it is or if I just need more meds. but something isn't right.
My room mate is a hugger. Yesterday, she wanted to hug me and I would just patt her on the back. I felt invasion of space, uncomfortable, paranoid/ She insisted on a hug and I pushed her away and as I walked away I said I"m on meds! Invasion of my space! I felt bad. She was pretty pissed too, but after all she's just a room mate. So all is good.
feeling 8/ 10 as lowest
I walked today for a fair bit. did some photography for mind distraction and it helped.
It's now 530pm no nap today. so that's good.
gonna eat huge dinner and then bed I think aiming for 8pm.
Maybe watch some t.v.
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