Confusion...

I am so excited.  I am so nervous.  With my history you would think that i would want to have nothing to do with psych hospitals.  But I just got a job as intake in the psychiatric ER.  And I am really excited.  It is nerve racking going from a job I have had for the past 7 years, where I was comfortable and knew everyone, but I was no longer happy, to a place where I know no one, but this may be leading to my dream.  I have attempted suicide in the past, a few times, and I think I want to get into suidide prevention.  I am terrrified, but I feel like this is where I belong.  I don't want others to feel the way I did.  I feel like this may be the change I have been needing!