Cjcat Journal

I am at my daughter's house.  The only way that I am able to use the internet.  I haven't been able to make an entry since before Thanksgiving of last year.  A lot has happenedsince then.  We have moved up into the mountains into what was supposed to be my husband's hunting camp.  Well, it is a little bit nicer than a hunting camp but if you want to talk about going green!  We have done that!  There is not any access to power lines so we use solar panels.   The well went dry last Friday so I am in town, almost an hour away, doing some laundry at my daughter's house.  There are two months, at least, every spring that there is not any access, except by foot to the place because of our illustrious MUD season!  But WOW it is beautiful.  

Still, when you are having a rough day and as we all know, those are many  :( it can be really tough to rough it in the woods.  The coyotes howl and the hawks swoop after the dog and yesterday there were bear tracks EVERYWHERE!  Remember,  it is BEAUTIFUL.  :)

The sleep patterns that I really thought would improve have just become worse and the pain has become an all day thing.  The doc has increased my doses of EVERYTHING and added new things.  I feel like I should rattle after I take my meds.    I just wish that it would all go away.  The FOG is the worst.  I feel like I can't think.  I told my doc that I felt like I was such a NumbAss,   sorry for the language.  But that is how I feel.  The simplest things feel like a chore.  It is awful   :(

I have read and read all of your entries.  Some of you seem to be doing so well  :)  I am so glad.  It gives me hope.  My big 50 is coming up next month and I never thought that I would be in this sort of shape.

Here's to ending on a smile.  To all of us that have had a bad few months it is our time now.  Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of our lives.  Perk up!  Look outside.  Enjoy the sun, the rain (remember my well is dry) whatever is out there!  Everyday I see that there are people in a worse situation than I am so I am grateful for what I have in life.  We just lost our home to foreclosure due to my husbands disability.  Things can be tough.  But they could be worse.