Well it is Friday May 16th and as it draws nearer to my departure date for North Carolina, my anxiety goes up and down. Sometimes I am so excited about going and others I feel like "no way can I do this!" The good news is that I have many more positive thoughts than negative ones. I have come to accept that I will definitely have panic attacks on this trip. But, I don't feel the need to run away. I know they are uncomfortable, but I can and will just ride it out. Each time I successfully conquer a panic attack I feel so great.