ok so today was probably one of the WORST days i've had in a LONG time. I know i should be eating more because of my ED but every time i do i feel guilty andready to throw up. Today there was junk food ALL OVER my house (cookies, peeps, cake) and i tried not to eat it but couldn't so, i ate WAY TO MUCH and of course after words felt like the most disgusting thing on earth!!! then, to make it worse i tried to make myslef throw up. I've really been trying not to but today i couldn't stop myself. I have no idea what to do and i'm SOO confused!!!!!! ugh, just a really bad day altogether. :(

I never did share my art with my new friends ... think you might like the piece entitled "Bi-Polar."  You may see a lot of my personality in my work as well as my disease.  Enjoy. 

Louie  http://rochonsculpture.artspan.com/

yeah. my friends they are gorgeous, skinny, and confident. sure i was pretty, skinnyish, but confident...hell noo. i would never be confident. i became anorexic in 7th grade (the first time around). i ate rarely and worked out much too hard. which was something that was not healthy or normal. but, people may ask...did you want to die? the answer is no. i just wanted to know what it was like for them to be everything that they were. no they did not always have it easy. but i would much rather have it like that than what i had. so i was caught in the middle of the second time in 7th grade. which was not an easy confrontation for anyone. i thought that was the worst had been done and that it would be hell telling my friends. but little did i know, that hell was only yet to come. and being anorexic, was one of the best parts of my life.  i will never regret it, but my life then was good. it just got worse and worse and worse from there.