Diary Entries for abb1994 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/bullimia-and-i Sat, 18 May 2013 13:38:40 +0100 FeedCreator 1.7.2 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/bullimia-and-i/meh-140240 <p>so everything went quite crap over the last few weeks. me and my boyfriend have been having huge arguements, his anger has got worse and he is lying again too.&nbsp;</p><p>I just couldn&#39;t cope with it all. I started going downhill and I ended up in hospital twice within a week due to overdoses. The doctors still wont put me on antidepressants. I know it sounds silly but I want to be put on them. I know by overdosing I&#39;m hurting the people around me and that&#39;s the last thing I want [...] abb1994 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/bullimia-and-i/interview-137819 I had my interview today! It went well and I have an observation day next week. I cannot wait! Fingers crossed I get it. I know it will totally make me feel better. Give me something to do, take my mindoff things and stop me worrying about money problems. Looks like everything could be looking up! :)&nbsp; abb1994 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/bullimia-and-i/fantastic <p>Everything is going brilliantly! I have a job interview tomorrow, I&#39;m moving in with my boyfriend, I haven&#39;t been binging or purging for nearly 2 weeks and my depression seems to be alot betterbecause of it!&nbsp;</p><p>I am so happy that I feel I am getting somewhere with my life! Eventually. But I am. So many times and years I&#39;ve thought I&#39;m going to grow up to be nothing and do nothing with my life, and now I feel like I have something worth living for and like people care! [...] abb1994 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/bullimia-and-i/such-ignorance reading peoples posts on this, and cant believe how ignorant some people are to Ed&#39;s ... its not a choice... its how you feel and what you do to make yourself feel better.&nbsp; abb1994 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/bullimia-and-i/support-137426 <p>wow this site really does have alot of support. although it has made me thing about my ED in more depth I have realised that i am not alone, and that there is alot of support out there. Also I haverealised I can used my experiences to help other people which is fantastic!&nbsp;<br /><br />Even my boyfriend is proud of me for coming on here, and being willing to speak about my Ed. Hes wonderful and im so lucky to have him and his support as I have thrown it in his face several times. He knows [...] abb1994 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/bullimia-and-i/entry-1-137375 So this is my first time on here. Not really sure what to say... apart from I&#39;m on here to stop a relapse, and I&#39;m hoping I can gain support from people on here, and also I can support others.&nbsp; abb1994