Well.. another day and another entry.  I of course had my mind set on so many things I wanted to accomplish today and yet I know I got a few things accomplished but feel like I still am takingseveral steps back. :(  I did not get to start the 'schedule' today since I had to take him to get a hair cut and his doctor appt which is a 40 min drive away so we didn't get home until after 6pm.   I am upset that his own father goes out fishing with his fiance on the ocean (hmmm gas prices and 50 gallon tank) several times a week while I have to figure out how to pay our son's medical bills (which as of the past two days is 630.00 that is with medication).   I have not received one dime towards medical bills since February and sure that doesn't sound like much time but he didn't start paying until January since he was under tricare until then.  I guess I am just unnerved that he puts on such an act as he is the 'poor sad part time dad .. oh how he LOVES his children' yet last time he saw them was Christmas and did he buy them a thing? NO but did he get his married girlfriend presents? Oh YES and of course the children notice this.. they are 13 and 9 they are not blind.  

Wow.. guess I had a lot to say .. been keeping it in for a year.   Hmmm what is the phrase.. I 'hit' my breaking point so to speak I guess. haha  

 One positive is the children KNOW they are loved by me and they KNOW they are safe with me. 

 Tomorrow will be DAY 1 of the new schedule.  At least that is my plan but we all know how the best made plans sometimes have huge unmade glitches. :(