broken

i just thought Id update the diary from where I left off I am schedualed for the 15 of sept. for the pain doctor to me it is rediculouse to ask people in pain to wait over a month to see a PAIN doctor,and of course if he orders any test it will be another month how long is this going to drag out before I get some help,On a good note the adoption date has finally been set for our boys its taken almost three years because we had to go through 2 states and we had alot of miss communication and errors,but its almost done and that it self will releve some stress, my husband is getting burned out out work his job is very hard pyhsically and I am not working so he's burned out,so thats adding stress we need the money and I have to have the insurance he already works 10 hr days now they are putting them on 12 hr days I feel guilty for not working too the money situation is real real bad so that stresses me alot everyday,I've bounced a few checks in the last two months and Its hard to catch up when that happends,bills bills everywhere,we have 10 horses which is sinking us with care my son and his now wife have four that they are not taking care of so we have to we gave them a warning that they will have to move them or sell them they havent even tried to help so Im putting one up for sale myself and that is going to start a fight but one of the bounced checks was for horse feed when they were supposse to pay and now that will cost me even more that I dont have,stress is worse for fibro but I cant seem to escape it..