|Jul 09 2012|
Why is it that the minute you start to feel better or things seem to finally be going your way, something has to come along and stomp all over what little happiness you have? Why do I even bother to try? If it's not this vengeful body of mine, then it's this world and the people in it. I guess I was stupid to enjoy that high (natural) I was on the other day. It only seems to make it worse when things come crashing down! And boy have I come crashing down! Why did I ever let myself think that I could ever have a life? Or friends? Or a career that I wanted to do instead of a job I have to do? Why did I waste almost 4 years of my life trying to go to school, when all along I knew that something would happen before I graduate in October to make me have to quit and get a second job? God, a second job, it kills me to do just one! Why? I would just like to know WHY? Am I really that bad of a person? What have I done in my life to make me deserve all of this pain and anguish? UUUGGG, I just wish I could crawl inside of a hole and never come out!
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