Brenda's Thoughts

A few days ago I came home from work and laid down to rest before I had to go to a funeral. I dozed off and work up later than I wanted. I found my husband was gone, but that wasn't really thatunusual anymore. When I got home from the funeral, I noticed some of his things were gone. He left me and the kids with no money and hardly any food. I had to tell my kids which I think was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. He left after they went to school without so much as a goodbye. 15 years of marriage and he has thrown it all away for another woman. He was supposed to come by after work tonight so we could talk with the kids sleeping and not be interrupted, well here it is after 5 a.m., and he has never called and is not answering my phone calls. I tried so hard for our whole marriage, i am not saying I am perfect, because that would be a lie! I am far from perfect! But what did I do that was so wrong? I have always been supportive of everything he has tried to do or wanted to do. I am the main support for the whole family. He doesn't even work 6 months out of the year and I have done this while working, taking care of the house and kids and going to college full time! What did I do? I just don't understand!!!!!!!!!!!!! My poor kids, especially my son. He has taken it the hardest. At 14 he needs his dad!!!!!!!!!!!I feel like I can't breath!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest!!!!!!!!!!! WHY????????????????????????????????????