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8/1/83

Jul 31 2010

august 1, 1983 a day i will never forget for that is the day that i was attacked, beaten and raped. i was 27 years old at the time i am now 51 and the memories still haunt me to this day, i still have a fear of the dark and its hard to trust a man. yes i had counselin for it as well as many many nightmares and everyday phobias. people say it passes and that eventually time heals all wounds but i for one as tommorrow approaches i am once again having so many mixed feelings and i just wander when and if these fears will ever subdue. its sad how one perosn can make such a profound effect on someones life without having second thought of how the abuser goes on day to day.

Previous diary posts by 2blessd2bstressd:

not forgotten...
fluttering and ...
what is someone suppose to do?
i'm doing okay/i'm going to be okay!
time

therapy
a week is gone
heppers/ dragon slayers?
the fight is over
my family

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written by Pixie1960, August 01, 2010

Hello friend,

I doubt anyone who goes through the horror you have would ever forget such a tramantic event.. I think the best you can really do
is to deal with it but not let it consume you either...live your life!!! I'm just a PM away if you need to talk! You hang in there! Keep us posted!

Gentle hugs to you my freind,
Kathleen

written by maya1, August 07, 2010

You never get over it but you can survive it. I did with many tools and searching. I found one thing. NO matter how much therapy you get, the decision to function again is yours. You have to find the tools that you need to heal. I found mine by writing a book, massage, reading spiritual books and dancing. I am kind to myself and don't take abuse from anyone. sigh. I had to resign today because of that but I am firm about not taking abuse no matter what. pm me if you need any help. I am a survivor!