brain fog?

 Twas' 11 days before Christmas, around 9:38

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Twas' 11 days before Christmas, around 9:38
when 20 beautiful children stormed through heaven's gate.
Their smiles were contagious, their laughter filled the air.
They could hardly believe all the beauty they saw there.
They were filled with such joy, they didn't know what to say.
They

they say God aint going put no more on you than you can bear, well God everdentally knows i am stronger than what i think i am.  times when i feel like screamming why me? but you know what, no matter what i am facing some how at the end of the day well a rather long ongoing day after day end of the day i survive and i know its nothing but the grace of God.

my sister fran, whom i mentioned here before just found out that she had cancer. that will be two of my siblings who has/had cancer.  Lord Lord Lord, you know my heart and my pain.

today is my brother lynn's 55st birthday. a year ago he died of cancer on the brain.  so much has been going on in my life at times i didnt know if i was coming on going. one of my youngerbrothers thaddeus died of a heart attack-but i still say to this day something just does not seem right  because he used to tell me some wicked stories he was going through with his wife, su

Hello everyone, I want to apologize for disappearing for a spell, but a lot has been going on in my life which in all honesty I should of been here with my mdjunction family because at times I actuallythought life was over for me. So much has happen and I will post on tomorrow but for now I wanted to say I'm sorry for being M.I.A  for so many months, but till tomorrow good night and God B

i was thinking about my moms who i miss dearly..and if she was alive today she would of been 98 years old.  i wonder what she would look like?, she had beautiful flawless skin, long pretty hair, pretty nails, prety smile, soft voice, loving eyes..i wonder what my moms would look like at 98?

i told my doctor i have been having difficulty sleeping such as like tonight lol here it is 3:05am but anyhoo...i asked if i can get something to help me rest. i explained to him that i find myselfrelaxing myself by making my feet do like a windshield wiper effect back and forth until i drift off to sleep alot of times. so he gave me a prescription alright lol i read the leaflet that comes

i miss my sister, no she has not passed on but we have no relationship and i miss her. i don't know honestly why there is so much distance between the two of us, i honestly feel that she hatesme~ i mean she tells me that she loves me but you know how you can just feel when someone does not care about you? well that is the feeling that i have. now dont get me wrong there was a time when her

Yesterday I cried

 

I came home, went straight to my room,

Sat on the edge of my bed,

kicked off my shoes,

Unhooked my bra,

And had myself a good cry.

 

I'm telling you,
I

made it through thanksgiving, now here comes christmas and new years...Lord give me strerngth. 

you say, "it's impossible." God says, "all things are possible" (luke 18:27).  you say, "i can't go on." God says, "i will direct your steps' (proverbs3:5-6).   you say, "i'm not able." God says, "i am able" (2 corinthians 9:8).  you say, " i can't forgive myself." God says, i forgive you&qu

first and foremost md family sorry i have not been here for a while i trust and pray that everone is doing well. so much has happen since the last time i was here but through it all i am still leaning and trusting God. i am learning more and more how to deal with my life and yes my godd it is so very scary at times and i feel so totally alone. i mean i have my immediate family but as i had

august 1, 1983 a day i will never forget for that is the day that i was attacked, beaten and raped. i was 27 years old at the time i am now 51 and the memories still haunt me to this day, i still have a fear of the dark and its hard to trust a man. yes i had counselin for it as well as many many nightmares and everyday phobias. people say it passes and that eventually time heals all wounds but

hello everyone hope all is well with you. i appologize for not being here in a while but i  have not been good at all it seems everything has taken a turn for the worse for me so i have been like out of touch and reality with just lifein period. i am trying really hard to get back into the swing of things but i am having rather a hard time i ask my friends/family here at mdjunc

for the past couple of weeks on the left side of my body i have been having  this fluttering sensation going on, its a real rumbling effect, no pain just fluttering, has anybody experienced this or might know what it is from? AND NO I AM NOT WITH CHILD!

my mdjunction family/friends...i have an issue here-well two,no three situations i am dealing with that i am asking for input. first of all, hi i hope all is well with you. last year i had my gallbladderremoved, i have been having alot of pain in my stomach since then so i went to see my dr. and she scheduled xray and cat scan come to find out i have gallstones:ohmy:  i asked the dr. how can

classes are going pretty good for me, i have till the end of this month and i completed a whole semester at psu, i really did not think i was going to be able to do it and there was a few times when iwas like -i'm done- i received a "D" on two of my exams in sociology and i was really bummed out about it, crying and all as was ready to quit because i had study so hard for the test th

wow along spell has gone by since i have been on here, i dont know if it is because of the deaths i have been dealing with, my health,my mentalstatus or schooling but it has been a while. as far as schooli am passig but by barely and it really bumms me out-i feel so dumb and embarrassed. my daughter says stick it out mom its only the first semester.  but personally i am ready to throw the tow

i am going to go see my therapist today, lord knows i need to talk to her about a few things well really alot of things (giggling) i wonder if sometimes she thinks that i am completely offmy rocker?

just a week ago today my brother lynn's battle with brain cancer has ended   RIP  lynn i love you.  my nephew matt, which is lynn's son told me that his cancerwas back.  it is so much to deal with, first my brother now my nephew and still my other brother eddie has prostate cancer and on top of that my sister fran told me that she might have ovarian

my doctor. had given me a prescription of lactulose because i told him i was a non-responder and the bloating of my belly making me look as if i am 12 months pregant, and how i forget things all the time. he wrote me aprescription for lactulose, i went and picked it up not knowing what i was getting, here i thought it was a small bottle of pills lol lol it was 6 not one but 6 bottles of this lactu

today thursday, march 25, 2010 my brother lynn went home to be with the lord.    2 days and 3 years(how they say it? proceeding my baby brother thad

i came from a family of 10 (like the waltons on tvlnd..lol), four sisters and five brothers and myself which made 10. i was right smack in the middle. my dad, francis passed in 1981, my mommy person, martha in 1999, my brother thad in 2007 (he was just a year younger than me), then in 2009 the oldest of the girls, jean passed...i dunno just thinking, my brother lynn who is a year older than me is

MY HEART ACHES...

doctor said that basically my brother was going to drown in his own fluids, my brother is really really swollen from i guess the cancer i am not quite sure its all mind boggling to me, i asked my brotheron a scale of 1-10 what was his pain level and he told me a 15. i hurt so bad for my brother, he seems to want to keep his spirits up and i don't know if it the brain cancer that makes him k

i am going to be okay, i have been spending alot of time here just reading in a fog type norm mood i guess. when i was 20 i was raped. i was comming from a friends house walking at 11pm and to get home by midnight i took a shortcut home. i went up under the vidock/bridge (which i have

I am sitting here watching the station   truTV  , its about this man by the name of   Jesse Ventura  who speaks on a variety of topic of secerets societies, the name of the show is called   Conspiracy Theory With Jesse Ventura  oh my goodness, some of the issues this man speaks of is down right scary. he te

 Dupuytren's contracture

  a disabling hand disorderin which thick, scar-like tissue bands form within the palm and may extend into the fingers. It can cause restricted movement, bending the fingers into an abnormal position.

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Terry's nail

 

My Brother's Cancer                                                 English 15

Brain cancer and its effects on loved ones, On December

i really surprised myself, i made it through my first two weeks in college. lol 51 and back in school but i am doing it with everything that is going on in my life i am doing it. so far i have recievedtwo "b's" and 1 "c" so i guess i am doing alright. my daughter thinks it keeps me focused and busy by attending classes, i do agree but somedays its so hard to concentrate and

if i scream loud enough do you think it will ease some of the hurt i feel for my brother, lynn? as you know he has cancer, brain cancer as a matter of fact, doctors told him (which i feel was poorbedside manner) that he has very little time and to prepare to say his good-bye etc. they told him about the constant headaches, lethargy, disorientation, loss of vision etc and in final that he

this is a letter to me from my daughter, and i wanted to share it to show just how blessed i am to have her in my life.

Mom, I look at you and see a walking miracle. your  unfailing love without limits, your ability to soothe my every hurt, the way you are on duty, unselfishly, every hour, every day makes me so greatful that I am yours and you are mine.

well i made it,  there is so many different people of various backgrounds attending there and a variety of age groups. i have a total of 5 classes and the time seems to go by rather fast, but as i said this is week one. guess what i took a sociology test on friday the 15th and i aced it, yup i sure did(lol). talking about being worried and studying whooo i crammed as if it was one of my final

i thank God for md junction/for the friends and family i am gaining here through this site, yes its an online family but the people here i have cooresponded here with trully seems to care and understanddifferent situations that i go through. its a comfort to be able to just express myself and not worry about being judged or shunned for voicing my opinion. i really do not get out much except f

doubt see the obstacles,  faith see the way.  doubt sees the blackest night,  faith see the day, doubt dreads to take a step, faith soars on high, doubt questions, "who believes? faith answers, "i"

 

today is a good day, even though i am in a lot of pain right about now, my brother is dying of cancer, i miss my parents, my daughter is not well, my vision is messing wih me today, there is snow on theground, i don't have two nickles to rub together, i had very little sleep in the past week, my hair is falling out, my train of thought is not up to par, there is feuding amongst my siblings, my

i ask for prayer is all i am at my end i am so tired of crying, being confused....

well i just found out that my brother a year older than me has brain cancer and the doctors says he has 3-6 months and that when he goes it will either be during a seizeure or in his sleep...when i seenhim i said "lynn, hi how are you?" and he had this blank look on his face and he just steared(sp) at me like he had no clue who i was. just then my nephew(his son) walked up and said"

well i am suppose to start college on 1/11 i have intentions on being a social worker, but with this dementia(brain fog as i like to call it) i am not sure if i will be able to handle it all-see when i first enrolled for college the forgetfulness was not that big of an issue but now i am starting to have second thoughts. my daughter says it will be good for my thinking process because i will have

i went to my doctor & explained to him how i was having difficulty sleeping & how when i do fall off to sleep it comforts me to swoosh my feet back and forth across the sheet till i fall off tosleep thinking that perhaps i would get a prescription for ambien like i have taken in the past oh i got a prescription alright let me list a few of the "possible side effects' listed in the