bipolar unspecified, general anxiety dis, PTSD

Most people would say things aren't looking too good for me right now. I been sick for some time now in my mind and in my body. I was closer to death than I have ever been. But I am still here. Andthat speaks volumes. Yes I am the soul provider of my family. And no I don't have a support system. I lost my job in the midst of this tribulation. Some may say that things look bleek. But those

He says I have mood swings. I often find myself apologizing for something I've said out of context. I'm on all my meds. I love him soo much. I tell him every day how much he means to me. But attimes I do find myself saying selfish comments. And its like,"Did I say that?" But somethings you say sorry for but it just doesn't fix it. I can't imagine my life without him. He m

Everything is not perfect as it always seems on the outside. I could list the things I have gone through from A-Z in the last few months. But I don't want to bore you. I will hit the highlightsthough. I have often been told my life is the entertainment of others, because if it could happen it usually happens to me. So here it goes, I tried to carefully plan for my big move. I had everything

Well I haven't been on in quite a while and a lot of things have changed. For the better that is. Me and my boyfriends relationship is stronger than ever. Me and the kids moved to be closer to him. And we will be getting married soon! We are adjusting very well as a blended family. He understands my mental illness and is very positive and encouraging to me. He is my bestfriend. The best par

I've been off 3 days now. the only thing i have accomplished is to buy groceries. i have undone laundry and i need to straighten up the house. its almost noon. and im just sitting here. i did showerand put on nice clothes in an effort to make myself feel better. this may seem like its not much but ive been depressed so its actually a small accomplishment. hopefully i ll be able to get back on

Last night was a hard night I picked the wrong movie to watch...Silly I know. But it had a sad ending and I found myself crying my eyes out. Because I feel so alone right now. Its just me and my son rightnow.My big girl is in Cali right now and my bf is in tn. He's like my strength and shes my baby. But thankfully I woke up the this morning and I feel a little stronger. And I am determined to

just wanted to clarify that i got the dose wrong on my clonipin it is only 0.5 mg twice a day. its my newest med and i get confused about the dose sometimes. although i dont forget to take it. lol wellhope everyone has a great day. 

Sorry I haven't been on in awhile. Just wanted to say that I am okay. Nothing new to talk about. Meds are working okay. By  tracking my moods I have learned my depression is worst around the time of my monthly cycle. So I guess I am a normal woman than! LOL Had a great visit with the Pdoc. I go back in March. I'm under alot of stress in my personal life right now and i've been eat

Living with Bipolar is like living on a constant rollarcoaster.I have type 2 so my highs are not that dangerous in my opinion. I feel like myself on the days I am manic and on the in between . But the lows are very low. Thats the hard part of this disease. The part that I can't pull myself out of most of the time. Its like having dark shades on. I'm still a sucessful and blessed woman b

Been back to work a couple of weeks now. I have good days and bad days. Bad days are usually filled with anxiety and depression. Not experiencing much mania. But than I am type 2 BP so I dont experiencemuch of the high highs. I have been sleeping alot. I need it just to be able to function daily. I had to get a pill planner to keep up with all these medications. I am now tracking my moods so I can

Today is my first day back to work after having my bipolar depression crisis. i am afraid but I am prayed up. 

Okay so after an extremely eventful day yesterday I decided i may be exhibiting some manic behaviors. Atleast for once I recognize it. And they just upped my lamictal so hopefully this will settle downwith time, meds, and therapy. In the meantime, I will document and trend my mood swings. I will also try to cut out the stimulants such as excessive caffiene intake as I am a coffee drinker and have

I was just discharged from an adult inpatient psychiatric unit today after a pretty bad bout of suicidal depression. It was hard at first adjusting to the rules of the unit and I found myself bumping heads with the staff. Once I realized that it was an acute unit where all patients there were considered either a harm to theirselves or others I came to realize that the staffs main priority was the

I was  abused sexually, mentally, and physically as a child and young adult. I can remember being depressed at as young of an age of nine. I wrote suicidal notes in my diary and often had a plan of how to end my life. I lost friends because they couldnt understand my mood swings and didnt understand the depression. At the age of 14 I tried to overdose but was unsucessful. I also ran away for