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"I support my fellow women." (Shadowvax)

MDJunction to me

"MDJunction has become a lifeline to my recovery. I use this site as a daily coping tool where i can share my thoughts,my fears and ask ways to cope with living life with a illness. I also found new friends here and they have restore my faith in humanity. People everywhere come here to share same problems or solutions to problems we encounter in our lives. MDjunction is a wonderful site and has help not only myself but also my family and friends. I recommend this site to anyone who thinks they are alone dealing with an illness and also to those who have love ones who suffer from illnesses. I will keep spreading the word about MDJunction to organizations who deals with illnesses that would benefit having MDjunction as a support system.Bottom line is.. I found myself again through MDJunction" (mobey)

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Losing My Mind

Nov 13 2010

I can't tell you how long it's been since I've had some clarity. It's as if I've lost my mind. I used to be sharp, quick-witted, and focused. Now those faculties have escaped me. I can't remember anything. It's as if I've got early onset of dementia. It's embarrassing.

I have to believe it's the combination of medications, because to believe otherwise is too devastating. I have to fight everyday against this disorder (Bipolar II) and it is wearing me down. I started with a new pdoc last week, so I'm praying he'll have answers.

I also have a hard time finding words (as I am right now) to express myself. I feel like I don't have control of my body. I am in a fog waiting for the sun...

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Weird Mood

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written by MadAsAHatter, November 13, 2010

This, too, shall pass. Hang in there.

written by notreally, November 14, 2010

Been there, done that, got the T-shirt. I am not sure if it is the meds of BP itself. I was having the same problem unmedicated. It sounds like you need to find the right meds. As it is you aren't functioning right and you do deserve that.