Today has been a wierd day. I am trying to be as normal as possible, get back into my routine. After I found out that my mom wouldnt be having surgery today I called work to see if they had any hoursI could pick up but they didnt. So, I just ran some errands and went to the northwest CSP for a bit. After that I went and sat with my mom for about 4 hours. Today she seemed a little confused. I dont know how to explain it though. My dad thought so too. Her surgery is supposed to be tomorrow at 3:00pm. I hope it goes well. After all is said and done I will need to learn alot about cleaning it and taking care of her. I hope I can do it all. I feel like I am barely take care of myself. My poor family has barely seen me but they are being pretty good about that.

I am just so sad.