I am bawling while I am trying to type. Not easy, I have glasses. I dont feel like I got very far at the doctors office this morning. They put me on lyrica and methocarbam (some muscle relaxor). I really am not hopeful. I am supposed to call back in 5 days and let them know how its going. I gave them my left over drugs like a good girl and they left them laying on the table. I showed the lady that walked me out. I wish I would have grabbed them. Then they would be searching for them.

So, I go to the pharmacy. They gave me a free week of the lyrica and a prescription for a month after that. I was told by my insurance company that I needed prior authorazation for it. Well it turns out that I dont. I need the pain clinic to call my insurance company to let them know that I have been on neurontin in the past. This way it will make my co-pays cheaper. I get home and call them and the lady I talk to is sooooooo rude to me. At the end of our conversation I actually asked her if I did something wrong because she was treating me very badly. She said that I was treating her like she didnt know how to do her job. I told her that she wasnt listening to me and that every time I go in there I get treated badly and all I want is to have my pain get managed not to leave crying and to end up crying every time I call. I told her that I felt like I get treated like a 2 year old! All she had to say is I am sorry that you feel that way.

I called my neuroligist, hopefully they will call back soon. I want to see if they have any other ideas. I am tired of hurting and feeling like shit! Maybe they can send me to a different pain clinic. I feel bad enough on my own. I dont need other people treating me like crap when I already feel like one myself!

I am really not in the mood to go to work today. I dont feel like having to put on a fake happy face. Maybe after I get there I will feel better mood wise. Doubtfull. I dont feel like I am ever gonna get out of it when I get this low! I am going to my support group today before work. Maybe that will help.