There I have said it! I am angry damn it! Last year at this time I was walking my dog 1&1/2 miles a day and I had lost around 45 pounds! Now I am at a point where it hurts to stand at all and it hurtsto sit in snything besides a recliner! I am 33 years old witha 14 year old daughter and a husband. I should be out having fun not siting here crying my day away and cutting my stomach to shit to cope with the pain! I want to smile and have fun again. Not sit aroung thinking about ways to die and wishing I was dead! Great life! I am being treated like shit by the nurses at the pain clinic and have told them that but they dont care. My friends and family are sick of hearing how much pain I am in. Besides here I have no one to talk to!