That is an awesome sentance...hurry up and wait! That is all I seem to do lately. I have such anxiety but honestly I dont think they could give me strong enough drugs to calm me.

Dont get me wrong, I am VERY thankful that I still have my mom with me! I love her so much! Probably more now with everything she has gone through. I dont mean to complain all the time. It is just my only realease for now. We do have some fun while we are togeather. But most of the time we are trying to figure out whats going wrong. Trying to be the doctor ourselves. What choice do we have though somethimes. Lately it feels like we know more then they do.

I need to spend time with my family. Tonight I will go home for a while, my daughter wont be there because she is babysitting for the weekend. But she will be at my sisters which isnt far from my moms. I can go visit her!