I just read what I wrote that day. I DID NOT MEAN IT!!!! I AM SORRY THAT I WROTE IT! I feel so guilty now! I just care about her so much and love her so much and want her around forever. This is goingto kill me. Am I a bad person for thinking this. The next morning was when she went into the hospital. I dont want her to die! I just meant that I dont want her to suffer or to be unhappy! I hope everyone knows that. I hate myself for even writing that. For even thinking that!