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An Art Show & yesterday's walk

Feb 05 2010

You guys .....  I'm going to do it!  I've decided!  I have the rest of this month paid for so I'm going to stop worrying about money for 2 weeks and I'm going to do thisshow.  I have two weeks to do 3 new pieces.  Luckily I've found 2 that I started (laid out bat foundation, so to speak) so I'm a leg up already.  Started last night.  I'll send ya'll pics as I go.  You'll be the first to see my new works!  

Feels so good to have something to look forward to.  I hope this time my work will be recognized.  The theme is everything birds.  We have three prominent birds around here.  The bald eagle (which I have a story from yesterday's walk), the blue heron and the hummingbird.  So I'm going to use them in my work!  Finger's crossed.  


Yesterday I walked down to the beach.  I haven't been this way in a while.  When I walk down the street there is a trail that leads down to the beach.  We used to take the "babies" (that's what I call my babies = dogs) all the time, but I haven't been that way since he left.  I've been going to this park instead.  But yesterday I thought, I'm taking this back.  There is a bench (I'll take a picture soon) that sits at the top of the cliff (high water bank) and it looks over the beach, Port Susan's Bay to the Cascade Mountains.  Oh My God, was it breathtaking.  I sat on the bench and breathed it all in with light and looked up just in time to see a bald eagle fly out from the tree behind me.  I can't express the grace as he flew circles around the bay then he would land on a tree limb next to me.  He did this 3 times.  As he sat on the branch I looked at him and realized the amazingness.  I am actually sitting here looking at what most people see in up close, zoomed in pictures, in person.  I could see his feathers, his eyes.. I could feel his energy.  I was in awe!  

I, for more years than I can remember, have closed my eyes in meditation and prayer and pictured this place where I wanted to end up.  A little home on the waterfront, where the mountains meet the water.  I would picture myself sitting on a bench with my dogs and a blanket around me with my knitting in the morning and being so grateful I was there.  

I realized yesterday exactly how close my creating this in my mind has come into manifestation.  I was there.  Sitting on the bench with my dogs looking at this absolutely perfect setting.  The only differences were instead of it being in my own back yard its a short walk from my home and I didn't have my blanket or my knitting.  (bit that sure is possible)

Native Americans say that birds are messengers to the heavens and the eagle is the messenger to the Great Spirit!  

Great Spirit showed me, I am living this blessed life and for a little snipit of time I existed in this vast beauty and forgot all about the pain.  I am home!  

Please pray that I will be able to keep my home and live my dream for the rest of this life!!

Its 2:13 pm and I'm going to get my butt up and get dressed and take my babies for a walk.  Maybe I'll meet Mr. Eagle again!  



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