|Oct 31 2009|
It's my birthday today! I'm thirty years old. It's one of those milestone birthdays.
My lovely husband is pretty tired today. He's taking a nap rightnow. They cut the dosage of his medications back because he was sleeping almost the whole day away as well as the night. The lower dosage seems a bit better. But I think he's in a depression as well. He was up for so long and what goes up must come down right? He is still my husband but he is very quiet and tired and seems to have lost interest in his art. I've seen him like this before. It usually would be like this after a couple of weeks of intense creativity and staying up all night to paint. Now that he has been diagnosed we can both look back and see the patterns of his episodes.
He says he has always been like that. But the manic periods have never degenerated into psychosis before which was what led to his hospitalization and diagnosis. I told him there is nothing bad about him. It's just his brain works differently and he has to monitor it to make sure it doesn't hurt him.
He bought me a spa day today for my birthday. I've never had a massage or a facial or a pedicure. It was so amazing. It was hours of pure relaxation. I'm so relaxed right now and all my cares just melted away. It was the perfect present. He feels bad because he is so tired today he can't really get into a "celebration" mood. But I don't care about stuff like that. I'm not a party person. I like being at home and we're going to cook a nice meal tonight and have a fire and eat Coldstone cupcakes for dessert!
I'm feeling good about turning thirty and marking another year with my husband. It will be full of tricks but treats too :)
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