Well I recently got some information from my husbands mother. I didn't want to involve the rest of his family cuz I didn't want to make matters worse and he fall off the deepend.  Well I made the right move. My dear mother-In-Law put me on the right tract. She sent me information on this program called EFT I did some research and it looks like this might work for the one that I love.  We have our first appointment later this week and seeing that one of the most important factors is his willingness to get help I believe well I pray this works for us.  So hang in there I will let you know.  Also please continue to pray for me.

I wonder how long does someone have to be in this type of hostage situation till they realize they need to WAKE UP.  I love my husband but I didn't realize till this past weekend that addictsare very very resourcefull and fantastic liars.  There has to be some type of class I can take to make me drug smart so I won't keep falling for his BS.  I finally broke my silence to inform his mother of his devilish sick distored drug ways.  She took it pretty good.  I thought that everyone knew but me.  However I have learned that they didn't realize he had gotten into HARD DRUGS.  They thought as I did he was only doing Mary J.  Oh how blind we have all been.  I use to laugh at jokes people made about crack heads but I must tell you there is nothing funny about this addiction NOTHING and shame on me and others who have found humor in this awful addiction.  It affects way more than the person with the addiction.  It can literally tear a persons home down like an atomic bomb.  :-(

You have to ask youself everyday. Who is the addict?  My husband walks around like there is nothing wrong.  Makes me wonder sometime if its me. Now here I am again at the very end of my rope.  Hey its not even a rope anymore its just air.  I have lost everything I have so far I don't know what esle I can do.  Lets see he takes my last bit of change, my family has no idea he is the addic that he is.  Oh not to mention he works when it wants to apparently cuz I never get anything from him.  I feel that I should just out him to the family and maybe that way he might at least try but I am just confused.  I did tell his brother and that didn't help any not at all.  His brother told his mother and sisters and there now acting like we are leaches I know great.  What is there left for me to do?  I am tired and scared