3setfree

i gotta hurry up n get ready for work, butlet me say this: i am so tired of being sick and tired, i finally decided i'm ready for help. i quit my meds agin 2 months ago, and promptly started self medicatng (again). i work, i parent, i function, but it's all done with this mask i wear hiding the real me! my mask is wearing thin, i'm not putting on as good as a show as i used to and am ready to let all the bullshit go. i want to be healthy, my babies need me to be healthy, i have to get well for them, i called 3 local agencies that deal with dual diagnosis, i'm bp2 rapid cycling, borderline, and self medicated. i want change, i need change, i'm waiting for calls back to see if my medical will cover these programs. it's time to put on a happy face n go to work now... "eleanor rigby, wearing a face that she keeps in a jar by the door"