MDJunction - People Helping People
 

Why wear a ribbon?

 
"For my two amazing boys who both carry the Autism diagnosis." (alihess6)

MDJunction to me

Peace77"Mdj to me is a place a can visit to talk to anyone while going through a hard time with depression.
I have learned so much from others and I'm grateful to all my special friends here. It truly is a place you can talk to people, and you will never be treated negatively. I have found only, caring and kind support here. Thank you Mdj for a place I call my home, when I need to get away from my life..and have unbiased support..
" (Peace77)

more testimonials
Zahc

'The Postern Of Fate is but your own front door'

Once the title of a failed blog I attempted, which can still be found, I believe, somewhere lost in Google Land, which I may try to resurrect, it is now a collection of thoughts, ideas, and dreams, very much influenced by the Lupus/Fibro/Chronic Pain I have; this enterprize--too--may fail, and I very much crave your kind support, truthful comments, and encouragement as I try to find my way, and--in doing so-- hope to offer the same to all who suffer even as I do.
There can be no pretention; there will be no lies, nor deception. Or false hopes.
In search of honesty and awareness, I can only offer up my prayers, thoughts, aspirations.
The 'Postern Of Fate' is but a gate, beyond which lay the uncertainties of the real world; inside lies the refuge, the comfort, security and sanctuary that we make of our homes, to guard against the unknowable.
All I have to offer is my limited and personal insight. Though, I readily offer--too--a ready ear, and--I hope, an open heart.
And--as always--I wish all 'well days' and peaceful nights.
Love,
'Zahc'


' Hurting. Hopeless. Helpless. Hollow. "

Jul 14 2012


" Hurting. Hopeless. Helpless. Hollow. "


07/14/12


I


Hurting. Hopeless. Helpless. Hollow.
Illness adds to constant pain uncaring,
until the soul cries out past all despairing.
Uncertain of the pills that I must swallow,
while waiting-ever waiting-for some benefit to follow.


II


Wanting. Won'dring. Worried. Waiting
for an antibiotic that will dry my tears;
to heal pneumonia, sinuses and ears.
In hopes that all infections will be soon abating.


III


Sleepless. Sweating. Suff'ring. ‘Shamed.
Too familiar is that old man's sweated smell
that makes my clothes and linens stink as well.
I no longer know what should be blamed;
this savaging of pain, untamed?


IV


Silence. Sleepless. Saddened. Stressed;
my dear friend, Joan, lies gravely ill in C.C.U.,
and poor Daisy's sick as well, and suffers too.
In pain and chills, I hardly have the strength now just to shower, and to get dressed.
I pray-Oh Lord-to heal us all, and grant us rest.


V


Pardon. Prayers. Petitioned Peace,
Oh Lord, for dreaded pain, and panic's end.
Please send your blessed angels to attend;
protect, defend, and ever grant us ease.
Oh please let joy and happiness in full return,
please make all pains and illness cease.


End


And to my very, very dearest, kind friends, and ever, constant, loyal readers, please always know that I love you dearly.


‘Zahc'



Previous diary posts by Zahc:
Comments (5)Add Comment
written by Conn65, July 14, 2012
Zahc, you write beautifully even when describing something as sad as your pain and illness. I'm so sorry you are dealing with the pain and pneumonia.
I'll say a prayer for health and healing for you.
written by scorpioj, July 15, 2012
Zahc,
I hope you and Daisy will be well soon, the following is a prayer for healing from helpguide.org

May God heal your body and soul.

May your pain cease,

May your strength increase,

May your fears be released,

May blessings, love, and joy surround you.

Amen.

written by Tenar, July 15, 2012
I appreciate the way you are using your troubles as grist for the mill. That may be the best way to redeem the experience.
written by Pixie1960, July 17, 2012
DEAREST ZACH,

I HOPE YOU AND DAISY WILL KEEP WELL SOON.

MY AUTOMINUE SYSTEM IS COMPROMISED WITH THIS SARCOIDOSIS SO I CONSTANTLY KEEP AN AFFECTION SOMEWHERE IN MY BODY. IT SEEMS LIKE I ATTRACT EVERY GERM, LITTLE AND LARGE THAT GOES BUY. LIKE YOU I CAN'T FIGHT OFF INFECTION BY MYSELF. I'M GETTING TO THE POINT WHERE MY DOCTORS SAY I AM BECOMING ANTIBIOTIC RESISTANT. JUST KNOW THAT YOU'RE NOT ALONE. HAS YOUR PAIN SPECIALIST DONE ANYTHING FOR YOU YET? THANKS FOR DELIGHTING MY HEART AND EARS WITH THE BEAUTIFUL WORDS. EVEN WHEN YOU'RE HURTING AND SAD, WELL, YOUR SENSITIVITY MAKES THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE. YOU TAKE CARE MY FRIEND.

HUGS,
KATHLEEN
written by STRENUBA, July 17, 2012
One of the best yet my friend. And no, it is not depressing. It is the Truth. You have no need to worry that your words will depress. I always look forward to your entries Zahc. You are loved here.
Your friend,
Bryan

Leave a comment
You must be logged in to leave a comment. Please register if you do not have an account yet.
busy


Members who read this post also read:

Disclaimer: The information provided in MDJunction is not a replacement for medical diagnosis, treatment, or professional medical advice.
In case of EMERGENCY call 911 or 1.800.273.TALK (8255) to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. Read more.
About Us | Terms & Conditions | Privacy | Spread the Word | MDJ Advocates | Advertise
Contact Us | Bookmark Us | FAQ | Awareness Ribbons
Copyright (c) 2006-2013 MDJunction.com All Rights Reserved