'The Postern Of Fate is but your own front door'

"YOU Are The Wonder, YOU Are The Light !"

05/09/13

To my dearest and ever supportive friends, and constant loyal readers,

Upon due consideration, I found that the majority of my diary entries were nothing more-really-than an over-wrought mosaic of monstrous pain, loneliness, and despair, disappointments in lif

"Hurting...Hopeless...Helpless...Hollow"

05/03/13

As always to my very friends and constant, patient loyal readers,

I

Hurting...Hopeless...Helpless...Hollow.
Illness adds to constant pain uncaring,
until the soul cries out past all despairing.
Suspicious of the ma

" When There Are No Pills To Take "

04/13/13

I

When there are no pills to take,
though illnesses adds its agony to constant pain.
When can I-trembling-take my opiates, again?
Until the clock agrees, I must endure, and wait.

II

When there are no friends to care,
and I a

"Nocturnal,' Omissions', And Other Ironies"

03/30/13

As always to my very, very dearest friends, and constant, loyal readers,

Beginning some three years ago, I found myself most willingly giving up any possible hope of maintaining any semblance of a regular schedule.

This did not happen overnight, but b

"Its Two: Three-Four A.M...."

03/10/13

To my very, dearest friends, and constant readers here at MDJunction,

I

"Its two: three-four a.m., and I could use a friend
to-perhaps-sit quiet with me here
until my shaking stops, and all of my most recent nightmares end;
an

"A Walk Along A Mostly Silent Shore Beside An Endless Sea"

‘Impressions Of An Alien Landscape'

03/06/13

To my ever-dearest friends, and always kind and steadfast readers,

Behind me, a length of misshapen footprints already made vague and indistinct in the wet and sinking sands that fill and e

"Through Eyes Of Broken Glass"

March 3, 2012

To my very dearest friends, and ever-loyal readers,

I

Sad. Sadness. I am so very, very sad.
I touch the sadness in the empty air.
I taste the sadness on my tongue and it makes hesitant my words; it is a language written in s

"So Far From Home, From Love, From Care"

March 2, 2013

(As always to my dearest friends, and ever-loyal, kind readers)

An apologia:

My last diary entry was on January 31st. At that time I foresaw the very real need to try to reduce the stresses of posting every other day to pos

"A Questioned Prayer; A Sad And Lost Lament"

01/31/13

( As always, to my very dearest friends, and ever-loyal readers )

I

Je vous prie, je vous implore,
mon Seigneur*, Lord whom I adore.
How much greater was my greatest sin-
that in eclipsing all other slights-was

"So...What's It Like To Be 59 ? "

01/12/13

To my dearest, kindest friends, and wonderfully loyal readers,

( A small dithyramb on the occasion of my fifty-ninth birthday, yesterday, at about 12:15 p.m. )

For at least six months leading up to my birthday, I was asked a number of tim

' Wednesday, December 26th. Christmas: The Day After '

12/26/12
 

To my ever dear, and dearest friends; and constant, kind, and loyal readers,

I

This was to be my considered assessment of, ' Christmas: the day after ', as I think it a most profound assay of our long-hoped-for dreams and expectat

' To You, My Dearest Friends, I Wish The 'Spirit Of The Holidays' All Year Long ! '

12/22/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and ever-kind, and loyal readers:

I cannot even in half-measure speak of my heart-gladdened gratitude to you for having chosen me to be your friend; I often think, what nascent qualities I mi

"Unfinished Thoughts Of The Children At Sandy Hook"

12/16/12

To my very, dearest friends, and always kind readers,

Please forgive me but-in trying to write, ‘something', I, with ever my own pain, and despair, was made by such a gulf of sadness too overcome to think-upon the subject more, and so was quite un

"Is Your Older Dog Becoming Indifferent To Meals? Perhaps THIS Might Help!"

12/02/12

To my very, dearest friends, andalways, kind readers,

Sometime, about five months ago, now, my dear canine companion-"Daisy"-began to evidence a particular indifference to her food.

For the past thirteen years

"Some Hoped For, Gladsome Wish I have For You"

12/01/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and always patient, loyal readers,

I cannot say-with any sense of truth-that today, Saturday, December 1, 2012 is in any way, ‘special'...excepting that, this morning, I awoke, finding myself to be still alive.

"It Seems We Are Not Much Changed, After All"

11/24/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and always constant, kind readers,

Less than forty-eight hours ago, we were as a grateful Nation, in some piety foregathered in our homes; surrounded by family members and dearest friends whom we would hold ever-close. To

"Thanksgiving Wishes From The Heart"

11/21/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and always constant, loyal readers,

I am so very glad that you chose to befriend me; your kind friendship has been a delight to me, and I am always so grateful for your kindness, caring, support, and encouragement which has made me

" :) !!! Today Is Daisy's 13th. Birthday!!!  "

11/17/12

To my very dearest, kind friends, and ever-loyal readers,

Thirteen years. Imagine that !

Hardly an eyelash flutter in geologic time, but-nevertheless-thirteen times that the earth has fully orbited the sun.
Perhaps a half-remembered scattering

"No Matter How Much I May Personally, Utterly Despise It, My Circumstance Necessitated That I Beg"

11/01/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and always comforting readers,

The other day, while typing steadily on, ‘Part II of, "To Sleep, Perchance To Dream", it suddenly hit me that I had written fourteen pages

"Hurricane Sandy"
A Time For Thoughts, A Time For Wishes, A Time For Prayers, And A Time For Healing.

10/30/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and always kind readers,

Safe within the comfort of my little home, with, "Daisy", loyally at my side, its easy-somehow-to become so wrapped-up in illne

"Ah-h-h-h...To Sleep, Perchance To Dream!"

Part I of IV:
What do we mean by, ‘Sleep'; and how shall we define it?

<br>10/29/12

To my very, very dear, and wonderful friends, and ever-constant, loyal readers,

Sleep. S-l-e-e-p-a word possibly derived from, ‘Middle o

" B~O~O~O~O~O~O~O~O~O !
And To All, A Most Happy Halloween !!! "

( "From goulies and ghosties and long-leggedly beasties and things thatgo bump in the night Good Lord, deliver us!"-from an ancient Scottish prayer, often mistakenly attributed to the Scottish poet, Robert ‘Robbie' Burnes. )

10/

"A 2nd Rate Heaven?"

10/25/12

(When a savaging of pain, weariness, and overuse of medication would make even a brief, but fitfuldream a bizarre, and twisted metaphor)

A note to all my wonderful readers:
While I realize that the description of persons, places, and events, along with any subseq

"And Now-My Very Dearest Friends, And Ever-loyal Readers-Its, ‘YOUR', Turn!"

10/23/12

(Note: I am SO very happy and gladthat my dear cousin (who knows light years more than do I about the computer!) was able to correct my horrific error, and to breathe new life into this diary entry!)

To my very pr

"To All My Very Dear Friends, And Loyal Readers At MDJunction...A Notice, Please Read"

10/22/12

I had almost completed a diary entry to post today, but-somehow-the neuropathy in my hands did me a mischief, and I lost 3/4ths of it, and ruined the rest.

I saved what I could to, ‘file', where it will have to remain unt

"For Your Most Kind Consideration: Approval, Satisfaction, Happiness, And...Joy!"

10/19/12

Part V, conclusion:

"2012"

To my very precious friends, and-as always-wonderfully loyal readers,

If you will kindly recall, before I began this series on ‘Happiness', I

"For Your Most Kind Consideration: Approval, Satisfaction, Happiness, And...Joy!"

10/16/12

Part V continued...

"1923"

(Comprised of more raw data, presumed inferences, arbitrary historical comparisons, subjective implications, and relative conclusions and their meanings)<

"For Your Most Kind Consideration: Approval, Satisfaction, Happiness, And...Joy!"

10/14/12

Part V of V

<br>(Comprised of more raw data, presumed inferences, arbitrary historical comparisons, subjective implications, and relative conclusions and their meanings)

In parts I-IV, attempts

"For Your Most Kind Consideration: Approval, Satisfaction, Happiness, And...Joy!"

10/10/12

Part IV of V

(when‘need'/fulfillment, is bound up in a desire for security...just how much of our perceived ‘happiness' involves owning ‘stuff'?)

[While statistics

"For Your Most Kind Consideration: Approval, Satisfaction, Happiness, And...Joy!"

10/08/12

Part III of V

(When ‘need'/fulfillment, is bound up in a desire for security...just how much of our perceived ‘happiness' involves owning ‘stuff'?)

(Please note: if you are in

" A ‘Paws', Now, For A Much-Needed Diversion: ‘Daisy To The Rescue!' "

10/06/12

" The ‘set up' "

To my always dearest friends, and comforting, ever-loyal readers,

About two months ago-here in sunny Flor-ida-one early afternoon, there occurred-quite witho

"For Your Most Kind Consideration: Approval, Satisfaction, Happiness, And...Joy!"

10/05/12

Part II of V

";Random Thoughts Without Words, Words Without Meaning, Meanings Without Understanding: Biased Conclusions Based On Simple Comparisons"

But first, a brief apologia

"For Your Most Kind Consideration: Approval, Satisfaction, Happiness, And...Joy!"

Part I of V

"Random Thoughts WithoutWords, Words Without Meaning, Meanings Without Understanding: The Process Begins"

10/03/12

To my dearest, wonderful friends, and patient, loyal readers,

"An Otherwise Sad and Somber Saturday, Transformed By An Unexpected Kindness Into A Day Of Sincere Thanks"

09/20/12

To my always dearestfriends, and patient, regular readers,

Having become disabled, now, with declining health and constant pain, unless I happen to have a scheduled doctor's appointment that I simply c

"Daisy: ‘Grateful Thanks'; ‘Test Results'; ‘Medication Follies'; ‘The Truly Inexplicable', And ; ‘How Many Dogs Am I?'"

09/26/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and ever-loyal, caring readers,

I cannot in near-full measure ever thank you enough for all the won

"A Paean For The Weary, A Poem For The Sleepless"

09/23/11

To my very precious friends, and constant, loyal readers,

As ever again, I must ask foryour most kind forgiveness, my sweet friends, as I have been so very tired of late, and from a want of genuine and refreshing sleep, have been rendered seriously dull-witted, and insensate; words co

"Daisy And Life, In General: Sometimes-Quite Unexpectedly-Things...Just...Happen"

09/20/12

To my very precious friends, and always constant readers,

Today I just feel tired; tired and exhausted. Bankrupt emotionally, and so very dull-witted of mind that even simple ideations will not come. And all I wan

"For Those Who Have Intractable Pain, As Have I, I have Good News I Want To Share With You!"

09/18/12

To my very dearest friends, andconstant, loyal readers, I know that so many of you suffer from interminable, horrible pain, that-sometimes-not even pain medication seems to touch; I suffer from it too, as can be found, listed, at m

"Newly Diagnosed? Referred To A ‘Specialist'? Some Things You NEED To Know To Help You Find The Best Provider For The Best Care Possible!"

09/16/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and as ever, kind, and loyal readers,

Earlier-today-I happened to chance-upon, read, and respond to a discussion thread by a new member to

"Time Wasted, Lost, Is Time Regretted: The Ordering And Passing Of Our Days"

09/14/12

To my very dearest friends, and stalwart, loyalreaders,

All of us are-of course-ruefully familiar with the annual, posted lists of how much time we actually spend on a number of typical, human activities.

By now, everyone knows that, i

"Daisy, Doubts, Depression, Doctors, Deprivation, Daydreams, Dalliances, Despair, and, Duracell Batteries"

09/12/12

To my always, dearest, dearest friends, and ever-constant, kind and loyal readers,

Please forgive me, as-once more-various illness, pain, depression, and sorrow over that which I cannot change, has caused

"When A Much-Loved Pet Begins To Fail. Part I of ‘?': One Plans For The Present"

09/09/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and always constant, loyal readers,

While I may have but briefly made mention of it, for the past several months-now-my dear canine companion, "Daisy", has, I think, begun to fa

'' Top Ten Reasons Why Being A ' Tyrannosaurus Rex' Sucks '
 

09/07/12

To my dear, dear friends, and ever-loyal readers: I think of you often, whether I happpen to online or not; I think of your kindness, your acceptance, encouragement, and support, all of which you give so freely, never seeking anything in retu

"Where DOES The Money Go ?"

( A never-ending, monthly lament! )

09/05/12

To my very, very dearestfriends, and ever constant, loyal readers,

I think I most recently set a new land-speed record for getting rid of my monthly, S.S.D.I. income; my checks are usually deposited the 3rd, but becaus

"Why Do I So Often Fear The Coming Night ?"

(is it because of seeming, endless, horrid nightmare, that in consuming all, would also seek my breath, or, rather that each night is thieve to prior day, to bring me that much closer unto death?)

dedicated to my dear friends, ‘mabri'; ‘DenverCowboy'; ‘1magicm

" An ‘A-B-C ‘ Of Home Health Care: A List Of Things You NEED To Know (Which Might Just Save Your Life, Or The Life Of Someone You Love), Incomplete As It May Be...Still "

Part II of II

09/01/12

To my ever dearest, loyal friends, and constant readers, I remain ever grateful to you for your caring, and support

08/30/12

Preface

During this time of seasonal disturbances, quirks of fate, and the usual roster of nicks and cuts, sprains, and co

"A Sigh OF Relief, Certainly, And, Prayers Of Thanks, Most Assuredly. But Now Others Will Have To Suffer, And Endure..."

08/27/12

To my ever, dearest friends, and always patient, loyal readers,

For those of you who have been kind-enough to abide yet a while with me, especially during this hurricane season in general, and hurr

"As The Hurricane Draws Ever Near, A Time To Hope And Pray, A Time To ‘Watch And Wait'...Always To Wait"

08/26/12

To my very, very special friends, and wonderfully loyal readers, a ‘special storm update', what there is of it.

How much difference can a day, or two, or three make, when considerin

"A Somewhat Disquieted Calm Before The Storm...And Other Trifles"

08/25/12

To my very, very dearest friends, andever-loyal readers,

Here in Sunny ‘Flor-ida', our Hurricane Season formally begins on June 1st, and ends, December 31st.

What, do you say...hurricanes in December; hurricanes at

"Haiku: A Most Delicate (And...Disciplined) Form Of Expression"

08/23/12

To my ever-dearest, and most wonderful friends, and constantlykind, and loyal readers,

Today, I would very much like for you to consider, "Haiku", an historical, and very disciplined poetic art form in Japan, and-now-elsewhere, as it beco

"Trapped By One's Possessions; In Full Surrounded By ‘Things'; Inundated By ‘Stuff'...But, What To Do ?"

08/21/12/

To my very, dearest and wonderful friends, and constant, loyal readers,

In the consideration of Human Values, among them is the driving need first, to own one's own home, and sec

"Saturday, the 18th of August, 2012: Just An Ordinary Day That Became Extraordinary!"

08/19/12

To my very, very dearestfriends, and constant, loyal readers,

On Friday, the weekend looked to be a disaster; I had an appointment with my Pain Doctor on Saturday, which-for me-was hitherto unheard of. The last time

"And Now, A Much-Needed Interlude For That Which Is Nice, A 'Pause', For That Which Is Cute"

08/17/12

To my very dearest friends, and ever loyal readers,

There are times when one tires so greatly of ever-complaining about this or that, here or there, why, and why nots.

Illness, a

" Wednesday's Child Is Full Of Woe... "

08/15/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and constant, loyal readers,

Today, although I may find myself to be in some lessened pain, nevertheless, I find that after a protracted, and most miserable fibromyalgia flare-up, there lingers-yet-a quiet sense of agit

08/13/12

To my wonderfully kind and caring friends, and-as always-faithful readers,

This past weekend has been one of utterly, unbearable illness and pain. Sometimes, dearest friends, I find I cannot rest, nor even move-about, wanting, only, to somehow dose-up sufficiently to become completely numb; pain and dist

" A Most Scattered Saturday "

08/11/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and, as always, to my ever constant, and loyal readers,

I must fully confess to you-my most dear friends-that today ( and...to a large extent, yesterday too! ) has proven to be far and away, a most unusual pre-weekend, and weekend for me. An

"Within The Secret Gardens Of The Heart, Displayed, Are Intimate, and Tonic, Flower'd Joys Arrayed"

08/09/12

Oh, my dearest, kindest friends, and ever-constant, loyal readers,

I have always loved flowers; pretty ones, unusual ones, striking ones, which range from the deep, dark red of the rose, "Mr. Lincoln&quo

" Comfort Food: Recipes From The Heart "

08/07/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and ever-constant, loyal readers,

Howmany food, or, food-related (edible) items would you guess occupy the shelves of an average-sized, grocery store in America? Please keep in mind that this list does not include such items as paper pla

"To Combat An Otherwise...'Somber Saturday', Perhaps A Little Levity Is Most Called For As A Necessary Diversion!"

08/04/12

To my verydearest, and kind friends, and ever loyal, and wonderful readers,

Today, dear friends, I thought to somehow, escape the ordinary tawdriness of pain, to focus on-instead-some little bit

"Nightmare, Ever, and Again "

(or, ‘Why cannot I simply dream of fond delights, instead of never-ending,
bizarre, and hellish dreams, that in my shallow'd sleep, would seek an evil,
and prolonged disturbance')

08/01/12

"My 1st Year Anniversary Of Diary Entries At MDJunction: A Continuing Journey Of Hope; Friendship; Gratitude; Discovery; And, Love!"

07/31/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and ever constant, loyal readers,

Instead of my usual diary entry-today-I would like, instead, to tell you of a day that is most special

" A Sunday Mosaic: A Confusion Of Errant Thoughts, And Lost Desires "

07/29/12

To my very, very dearest friends, and ever-constant, loyal readers,

‘ Present Tense ‘

Just before 5:00 a.m., I was dragged from a deep, black, and dreamless fitful sleep (is this what death is l

" Pain: Scattered Thoughts And Notions "

07/27/12

To my ever, dearest, dearest friends, and constant, treasured readers,

Today-of course-is Friday, heralding, soon, an end to another week, made more or less unremarkable by utterly rampaging pain that just won't quit; but, my dearest friends, this is hardly new, or n

" But Then, Up, And Mr. Pain Come In "
( in the style of an early American folksong, after Stephen Foster, or, a Spiritual )

07/25/12

Once'd I'sa was one happy man
Fo' I'sa felt so good, and free.
But then, up, and Mr. Pain come in,
An' stole it all from me.

I'sa work al

"For Those Who Have Intractable Pain, As Have I, I have Good News I Want To Share With You"

07/24/12

To my very dearest friends, and constant, loyal readers, I know that so many of you suffer from interminable, horrible pain, that-sometimes-not even pain medication seems to touch; I suffer from it too, as can be found, listed, at m

" In Mundi Per Fumus et Ignus "
( the world by smoke and fire, consumed )

Part III of III

From the days of having worked the night shift in a locked Adult, Intensive Care Unit, of a private Psychiatric Hospital, now, some thirty years ago. [ from the cycle: "Various Songs and Sorrows", originally

" In Seeking, What Shall You Find?" ; And, A Request From The Author

07/21/12

"In Seeking, What Shall You Find?"

Seek Evil, and its malevolence will find you.

Seek Hatred, and you will be made afraid.

Seek Chaos, and it will confuse, and ever blind you.

Seek Goodness, an

" Today..............Aurora.......
.....Tomorrow.............Anywhere"

O7/20/12

"Today, Aurora...Tomorrow,...Anywhere"

I

Just past midnight, of a new-though-ordinary day. Aurora, city of mountains, evergreens, forests. Cloud-brushed city, you were sleeping unaware of

" In Mundi Per Fumus et Ignus "
( the world by smoke and fire, consumed )

Part II of III

From the days of having worked the nightshift in a locked Adult, Intensive Care Unit, of a private Psychiatric Hospital, now, some thirty years ago. [ from the cycle: "Various Songs and Sorrows", originally written, 2007 ]

" In Mundi Per Fumus et Ignus "
( the world by smoke and fire, consumed )

Part I of III

From the days of having worked the night shift in a locked Adult, Intensive Care Unit, of a private Psychiatric Hospital, now, some thirty years ago. [ from the cycle: "Various Songs and Sorrows", originally written, 2007 ]

To my a

" In Two Weeks, And A Day ! "

07/16/12

To my ever, dearest friends, and constant, loyal readers,

After I had arrived homefrom my pain doctor (no news, there, especially), I found myself at my calendar, penning-in future appointments. When, it occurred to me, again, that in two weeks and a day, I shall be celebrating my

" Hurting. Hopeless. Helpless. Hollow. "

07/14/12

I

Hurting. Hopeless. Helpless. Hollow.
Illness adds to constant pain uncaring,
until the soul cries out past all despairing.
Uncertain of the pills that I must swallow,
while waiting-ever waiting-for some benefit to follow.<

" When There Are No Pills To Take "

07/12/12

I

When there are no pills to take
though illness adds its agony to constantpain.
When can I-trembling-take my opiates again?
Until the clock agrees, I must endure, and wait.

II

When there are no friends to care.
And I am left alone, afr

" The Irony Of Dreams, And The Disappointment "

( originally written, July 13, 2008 )

07/10/12

To my very dearest friends, and constant, loyal readers,

Prologue:

I frequently awake to mornings unremarkable in promise, or in gain, or of purpose, dependi

" It's Two: three-four a.m., And I Could Use..."

( based upon too-many a true story )

As always, to my most wonderfully kind, enduring friends, and so important, ever loyal readers,

Prologue

How many times have you been prescribed a medication, only to find it has some

" ‘Independence Day'...For Some, When It Should Be For All "

07/04/12

To my wonderfully kind, and caring friends, and ever most respected loyal readers,

In America-today, my dearest friends, today is ‘Independence Day', or as it is more casually known: ‘the 4th of July'. For a certain number of

" Sometimes, When Tired Agoraphobes Would Dream To Roam "

07/02/12

To my very, very dearest friends, supportive, and ever kind, and to the most loyal, caring readers...a gentle, sad, though accurate lament,

I

Sometimes, when tired agoraphobes would dream to roam,
to lift one's eyes beyond the front doo

" YOU are the wonder, YOU are the light ! "

06/29/12

To my ever, very dearest, dearest friends, and kind, and loyal, gentle readers, a grateful thought from me to you. I think of you so very often, and wish for you no pain, no anguish, nor despair...only, all the true happiness that you deserve every day !

" Oh Boy !!! Another Family Camping Trip "

06/28/12

To my very, dearest, dearest friends, and as ever, loyal readers, at fifty-eight, I thinkthat I have managed to learn many things, from the trivial, to the dramatic; these ‘lessons' in Life were usually the result of folly, misinformation, pure bull-headedness, good intentio

"One Fish, Two Fish, Red Fish...Who, Fish?!"

Part II of II

06/24/12

To my very, dearest, and most precious friends, and every patient, and loyal readers,

I must-once again-ask for your most kind tolerance, and patience, as, yesterday, in trying to compose what I hoped would be a humorous, diary entry, it

"One Fish, Two Fish, Red Fish...Who, Fish?!"

Part I of II
( Part II to follow, tomorrow )

06/23/12

To my very, dearest, and most precious friends, and ever patient, and loyal readers,

My late father was an avid, outdoor sportsman for much of his life, until age, and illness forced him to stop; during the

" How Very Quickly Can A Pleasant Exchange Become A ‘Rant'"

06/20/12

To my very dearest, dearest friends, and ever loyal readers, perhaps I should try to explain myself; presently, I am still very ill with bronchitis and pneumonia, and my Primary, now, wants me to try a new antibiotic. Will this one work? Who knows...only, that

"What Do We Seek? What Shall We Ask For? What Can We Hope For? What Will We Live With?"

A Special Tribute To Father's Day!

06/17/12

To my always dearest friends, and constant, loyal readers, remarked upon the calendar-today-is "Father's Day"; and I can well-understand that, for too many, today

" Are We There, Yet, Daddy? Daddy?? Daddy???!!! "

06/16/12

To my special friends, and loyal, constant readers, this is the time of year thatmany-who can still afford it-plan their vacations.

Maps and travel brochures are gotten out, and many pencils are chewed nearly in half, as prospective lodgings are examined, meaning, trying t

" Well, ‘Giddy-up, giddy-up, giddy-up go'...Who Me ? "

06/13/12

To my dearest friends, and ever-constant, loyal readers,

Now...please don't get me wrong. In general, I really do like animals, especially dogs and cats, and pandas, and lemurs, and turtles...in fact, many animals, all of which look SO cute as b

" On, How Apparent Swings In Downward Spiral, The Human Race "

06/10/12

To my ever most dear, and wonderful friends, and constant, loyal readers,

I first must admit to you my lasting naiveté, when-otherwise-at my time of life, I had considered I had seen so many aspects of life, and had ‘been around the block' so m

" Please...Why? "

06/08/12

Please...why is it when dire, infectious illness wends so slowly as it slowly wanes,
all kinds of miseriedthings-instead-fly in;
like roving migraines, more deep despair, and unrelenting stomach pains,
to seek some measure of ascendency, there, to lasting, dwell within?

For though a painf

" Whenever Dreary Illness To Existing Agonies Of Pain Is Wed, The Ill-struck Mind Thinks Back Upon The Odd, But Somehow Kinder Hope Instead "

( An entry made upof bits of fluff, delusion, lost love, and worse; to try to find some lambent comfort written out as prose, and sometimes verse, or in uncompleted notions, bits of thought, that only pain or illness k

" First...You Must Forgive Yourself "

06/03/13

To my very, very dearest friends, and ready, constant readers, I would like to wishfor you a most quiet and peaceful Sunday, free from pain or care. I wish happiness for you and your family, free-at least for today-the worries, or any demonstrated ill-humor, which might otherwise

" How Often Do We-While Looking Towards The sky-Miss The Little Things Beneath Our Feet? "

(dedicated-with much admiration-to my friend, ‘mabri' )

06/01/12

Today, my most dear friends, I must excuse my brevity, as I am again most ill which compromises my thinking processes, as well as rendering me s

" Oh...That Giant Door Being Slammed Shut, Was But An End To A Forty-two Year Old Friendship...Who Knew? "

05/30/12

As always to my very dearestfriends, and constant, every loyal readers,
I find, as I get older, the less I seem to know, or understand, or validate, or...forgive; our lifespans are just not long-enough to hold decade&

" The Miracle Of ‘Paying Forward' A Blessing, That Truly Makes The Angels Sing "

05/28/12

My dearest, kindest friends, and ever-loyalreaders, you know you have my greatest thanks, and loving gratitude.

Sometimes, when I am feeling particularly bad, in a thousand agonies, whose ‘global pain' is relentless, and of

" How High The Sky, How Deep The Sea "

( impressions of a friend's personal odyssey)

05/25/12

I once asked mydear and loving friend to explain ‘Bipolar II' to me.
And in a quiet, contemplating voice, he spoke of errant, mood-cycled tortures without end; and sighing, he replied, " How hig

" In Vain I Turned To Craig's List To Catch Sight Of, Much Less Catch, Some Wayward Dreams "

05/23/12

To my always dear, and understanding friends, and constant, ever-loyal readers, whom I love,
While this is like to be no more than selfish , or self-serving exposition, there are times when my ‘global' pain surprises me, and

" In Everyday Existence...Still, Some Small, But Flickering Light to Heaven-If Looked For-May Be Found; Even, If Its Name Be: Pepperoni "

05/21/12

To my ever-dear, and caring friends, and constant readers,

I suppose that there are times when we all feel weird; our medications make us feel strange, not quite ourselves. We

" ‘ Hypersensitivity ‘, And Its Role In General Panic And Anxiety Disorders: A Brief Consideration..."

05/19/12

As ever tomy most special, and most dear friends, and constant, loyal readers,

I must begin my thoughts with the note that in no way, am I a professional. I am not a Therapist, or, licensed in any way,

" Another Goddamn, Useless Night, And Empty Day: A Bitter, Angry Essay, As-Soon-I Shall ‘Celebrate' Ten Years Of Failing Disability, And, For What? "

05/18/12

My wonderful, and ever-dear, and constant friends, and patient, loyal readers, I remain ever grateful for your having befriended me, with all my obvious faults, an

" Flying Monkeys "

05/15/12

Oh...my very, very dearest friends, and ever-loyal readers, I do think of you often, and hope that you're feeling better, made comfortable, and loved, cared-for by both family and friends; your days as sweet as the Dandelion wine my Grandfather used to ‘put up' in the basement during the

" A Brief Encomium To Mother's Day, Sunday, May 13, 2012 "

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Sunday, May 13, 2012

I accidentally stumbled across this, pretty, little video, that somehow needs sharing, with just the 'right' mother.

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And while everyone's circumstance is differen