Borderline Personality Support Group

(http://www.latimes.com/health/boostershots/la-heb- borderline-personality-20110406,0,6363996.story)

Borderline personality disorder usually goes away over time, but patients can be left with lingering "scars" that continue to hold them back in life, according to a major study on the disorder published Monday.

For the past ten years I have know that something has not been right with me. My first suicide attempt was at age 13. I have been hospitalized once for a suicide attempt at 19. I didn't really want to die, but I was feeling terrible about various situations in my life.. it was done more on impluse than anything. I have been diagnosed over the years with add, ptsd, gad, mdd, and bipolar2 disorder. Some of these chacteristics fit me, but not completey. None of their treatments or medications ever seemed to have an impact on me. I was just about to give up until I stubled up on BPD on a website. I talked to my theripast about it and he said that I was. i moved out of town and I don't get to see him anymore. I tried telling my counselor about it and she said it's an axis disorder so it's not that big of deal. She will never really talks about it during our short session. I have tried to tell my boyfriend and my exboss about it but they get really akward - like I just told them something terrible. I pressed my boyfriend into talking about it and he yelled at me and told me he never wanted to hear me talk about it again. I feel like i have the plauge by the way everyone reacts about it.

In this 5th part of my serial article I wish to write about a recurrent scene that plays out time and again as I drive out on a car journey with my wife. The sequence of events is amazingly consistent, to a point where I can now predict correctly what is going to happen next, as the scene unfolds. One of the things I can be sure of is that there will be no problem if we have company with us in the car. However, if it is just the two of us, its almost always happens. The purpose of this narration is not BPD bashing but to act as a guide to better handling, by the non-BPD partner, of a potentially dangerous situation.